quarta-feira, 11 de novembro de 2009

The complications of being inlove with the wrong person

Loving someone is great. It does wonders to you mood, to your hair, to your skin and to your hormones. The problem arises when you are inlove with wrong guy.
I always thought that this kind of talk was for teens that watch too much cheap soap operas. Since I am not a teen nor I watch TV, I guess that doesn't apply, so I am left with the alternative that, in fact, one does such thing.
My boyfriend is certainly (and I am not going to nitpick on whether the time of the verb is correct) the wrong guy for me. This is not something I enjoy writing, bit the truth to the matter is that between our previous break-up and getting together again I've been hurt more than in all my (previous) life. I am eternaly grateful for the eye-opening experiences we shared, for making me realise that I could love someone as unconditionally as I loved (and still do) him.

It is amazing that despite all I've been through, I still feel so bad about writing bad things about him, even in a blog that no one sees, but I do.

But I've had it with unreturned calls, unreturned SMSs, and "I've been so sick that I could't get to the phone". I'm sick of sending love and getting absoutely nothing but indiference in return, but most of all, I am sick of being so inlove with him. It's crazy, it's probably a medical condition, and if someone ou there as any hint of a clue on how to help me, I'd really appreciate it, since, I am writing this and wishing he'd drop me a line or a call or something.

I am pathetic. A 30 year old guy bitching like a 14 year old, but I can't help it..

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